can i have a foot long WHAT THE FUCK!? please!?
i dont get it. not realistically anyway.
im trying to get off drugs a bit.. lay off them and concentrate on getting a better life for myself. i mean im still young still have something going for me i guess. and i really want it.. sometimes more than i want drugs. and they know that.
they know i wanna lay off pills and yet still have the audacity to call me a snob because i declined an invitation to go pingin' off me head in the forest at a friends new house. THEY KNOW that every other time ive gone to lay off the drugs ive found myself in a situation where im with other people taking drugs and i just give in and get fucked up myself.. Do they need me to yell to them "IM FUCKIN WEAK AND DONT TRUST MYSELF OUT THERE WITH YOU ALL FUCKED!" do they really? shouldnt they understand. havent they seen how ive been sticking to the bongs and not having any loui or pills. not touching trips. cut down on ciggies. been saying i need to get off it... i mean its been an open issue that im trying to get off it.
fuck.
why would they want me to sit around sober with them. all i'd do is sit in the corner getting stoned while they're off playing fucked up games in the bush... tripping out with all sorts.
and how dare **** go on and say that im fucked up. that its not about the drugs its about friend ship! haha stop fooling yourself dickhead. there are no friend ships.. its ALL about the drugs. esp with you! your so far gone into drugs that you cant see shit. and everyone has been talking about it.. some even laughing about it cause you just cant seem to understand!
calm down
chill out
for fucks sakes
leave me alone
bitches
f�nb
8:23 p.m. - 2005-03-27
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