monday nights. ripped out of my hole and cruicified to reality. another five days of hell.
overwhelmed by feelings of shame. loss. confusion. dread... do people call this state depression?
fucking hanging for a cone. just knowing that none are coming.
that the only thing i CAN look forward to ... is more & more thinking.
no sleep.
just desperation.
perhaps hope.
but always a cone.
10:30PM - 2005-06-14
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