sitting at home when im supposed to be at school.
thats what i do.
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its as if so much is happening that im not allowing myself to be apart of. the world is changing, my friends are growing up, getting drug fucked, leaving, fighting. and i'm here... just nothing.
i wanna be able to tell people how it is.. to grow the fuck up.. and see their situation for what is really is. to give them hope? but i'll just be a hypocrite.. and whats wrong with that?
i've made all their mistakes, i've lived the experiences, the feelings, the amazing highs, and the crashing lows... so wouldnt i be the PERFECT candidate in giving some advice? sure i'm not heaven sent, not the description of someone who has changed and made my life into a perfect little haven. but i know that i'd rather one of MY mates telling me i'm fucked rather than some clueless noboday who cant even imagine the 'shit' we live.
i dunno if it makes.. i guess it doesnt really need to . it makes sense up here in my head .
so here i go. back to the world. the screaming reality.
keep smiling... you might even fool YourSelf!
jD. xo
12:20 p.m. - 2005-08-05
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