3 months or so have passed.
work began.. and its still going, i've realised i'm not so suitable for an apprenticeship. im looking into getting a loan for a full time course at the same place where i work, they have an academy upstairs. hopefully it will work out.
i've been sick with that flu shit that's been going around.. it sucks. i hate being sick. trying to battle it out with as little help from meds as possible.
FOOD.. i cant control my intake. all of a sudden i feel like i've gained a hundred kilo's. i'm eating so much shit. i need to diet. or adopt a healthier lifestyle to lose weight.. im sick of it.
failed r'ships have become the norm. see you bye sex.. none of that for me. and not completely caring at the moment. maybe thats wrong. but i'm falling back into my old ways of thinking (yesagainkillmehatesuicidetasteslikecandy)
just wanna be in a good place and im trying so fucking hard to get there. just gonna be nice and sweet about it though, cos as soon as panic sets in im fucked.. i know it. you know it.. we all know it. it gets too much and i back out. none of that shit. i gotta put up with it and learn to deal with my shit.
anyway. maybe another entry in the next three months. hopefully by then things have drastically changed for me.. or at least on the way to drastic change.
peace
<3
jD
9:46 p.m. - 2006-04-26
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